Tuesday, 23 July 2013

Stars

  
His stars must have been aligned just right. Allison Teale had just witnessed his gig – and he’d torn the place up. Emboldened by a couple of pints and whiskies he’d got up and sung his three songs with great poise and passion; he’d replicated how he’d sung in his own bedroom for years when he hadn’t had the bottle to do it in public. His guitar-playing and his voice had infused, became one animal. At one point he’d felt the music rise like a bird and the power of it had enraptured the audience who had roared and clapped at the end. And then...

Allison Teale. Sultry and beautiful; the object of his affection and desire when he’d worked in the job centre with her. He was known as a mild, harmless flirt with many of the women in the office, he enjoyed making them laugh, but...with Allison Teale he became all tongue-tied, the rhythm of his speech became awkward. Just to be in her company it seemed, wiped his brain of his usual material, his one-liners sounded stupid, sometimes bordering on crude.

Anyway, it was well known she was spoken for. She lived with some Steve bloke, also a musician, and she was always bumming him up on Facebook – Steve’s playing this club, Steve this and that. He’d never met Steve, but he despised the man.

But she’d seen his performance and was now standing in front of him.

-what’s this Davie MacCallum all about, Mister Wylie?

-o hi Allison! Didn’t know you were in..

-I’m asking, what’s with the stage name?

-o you know, for tax reasons..

She smiled at this – you were terrific, absolutely brilliant. I didn’t realise...

He could tell that she meant this, she was looking him in a way he was unused to being looked at by Allison Teale. It sent lightning sparks of pleasure to many of the right places, not least wherever his ego lived.

Just to enhance the illusion of his new-found superstardom a man interrupted their conversation to politely ask for his autograph. Davie wondered if the man was kidding, this was an open mic night in a pub in Edinburgh for goodness sake, why would anyone want his autograph? Seeing the man was ardent in his wish Davie duly signed. He glowed inside with the thought of how this would surely look to Allison. This was impressive. Women liked impressive.

She said that she was with a group of work-mates and asked if he would like to join their company. All the while he’s getting ‘bloody great mate’ and ‘loved your songs’ from people in the pub. He felt like he was walking on air and thought to himself that if his life ended tonight then he was quite satisfied.

He was introduced to her friends; three smiling females, and one slightly scunnered looking bloke. Blokes don’t like other blokes impressing females they happen to be in the company of. If his nose had been any further out of joint he’d have required corrective surgery. Dave was delighted about this, for once it wasn’t him being introduced to the impressive bloke.

They all said how good they’d thought he’d been, compliments he accepted demurely and with due reticence. Inside he was screaming ‘yes ya beauty!’

A couple of people came over with pints for him and claps on the back to indicate their appreciation of his performance. He accepted these graciously. The fella who ran the Open Mic came over to express his liking of his act and asked Davie if he’d consider doing the half hour spot in three weeks time. Davie said he’d be delighted. The bloke followed on by saying he didn’t usually offer this spot to people after just one performance but would make an exception in Davie’s case so good did he think he was. Allison Teale and her mates were all listening to this – he wondered if perhaps he was dreaming?

After the bloke had gone he’d joked with Allison and her friends that all these compliments were just so he would buy a round which he got up to do. At the bar he glanced around and saw Allison was looking at him.

She was impressed.

The night wore on and the drink flowed. He found that Allison Teale was keen to monopolise his company and they talked and laughed a lot. They laughed about Facebook and the fact that they were friends on their along with a good many others from the job centre. She asked if he was aware that she no longer lived with Stevie and that they had finished for good. He faked concern and sympathy at this news while inside he screamed ‘yes ya beauty!’ Being the person he was though he did feel genuine sympathy with the pain this had caused her. He expressed empathy with her plight by telling her how badly he’d felt at the break-up of his last relationship. She enquired about the reasons for this and he made her smile when he said he’d need to write a book about his love life so intricate and unfortunate was it.

When she said again that she was unaware of his musical talents he asked was she not aware of his myspace site, a link for which was always prominent on his Facebook page? She said she was unaware of it. He didn’t know if it was the drink or a growing and very pleasurable knowledge that they were enjoying their intimacy but he found himself telling her of his disappointment that she was one of the few of his Facebook friends who hadn’t listened to any of the songs on his myspace site. He told her that Sami and Meeta and Else and Mags from the job centre had listened one evening and had regaled him with compliments on his songs and his singing and still she, Allison Teale, had not listened. He also told her that anytime that he saw her little green ‘chat’ dot meaning she was online he would re-post the link to his myspace site in the hope she would stumble on it, but she hadn’t. He told her that the only one of his Facebook friends that he badly wanted to hear his songs was very nearly the only one who hadn’t.

He was telling her that he sought her attention.

Out of propriety she turned her attention to her friends while he shared a laugh with the people sat at the table next to them. He was on good form and his comments and one-liners were raising guffaws. They seemed to want to court his attention and be associated with him in this way. It seemed clear that this was because of the stir his performance had caused. He thought back at the power he’d felt up there in front of the mic. He now knew what the phrase ‘having an audience in the palm of your hands’ meant. He’d sang the words perfectly and with nuance. He’d played his guitar expressively and was note-perfect. He hadn’t felt it was possible to sing a wrong note or fluff a chord. He was in total control. And he hadn’t been aware of her presence. Probably if he had have been it would have made him nervous, possibly marred his performance. What a stroke of luck he’d had.

His stars must have been in perfect alignment. 

Sunday, 21 July 2013

Crying-Faced Bastard Speaks 1

It’s Sunday and I’m bored and, mindful of any propensity this state induces for a return to bad ways I decide to just take a walk around Edinburgh. Walking up through Mountcastle toward Duddingston and the impressively looming Arthur’s Seat one realises one is in ‘Bungalow World’. I feel eminently comfortable in Bungalow World it reminds me of my Granny and Granpa’s bungalow in Ayr and the concomitant aromas of apples and roses. Bungalow world is beige in every way – there is no skulduggery going on here, just well-to-do families or well-to-done elderly folk trimming hedges and washing cars. No for sale signs here, these people, like their abodely investments, are solid as oak.

These are places where bowling clubs thrive, for Christ’s sake!

I will never aspire to Bungalow World mores the pity. In so many ways, we all end up where we’re supposed to be which in my case is a rented flat on the top floor of a tenement – higher in fact, but lower on the social scale.

Scanning the impressive, lyrical expanse of Duddingson Loch (where it was that the Reverend Walker was depicted as skating with such alacrity and style) I decide on a theme for my walk. Let this be a Victor Meldrew/Larry David tribute walk. Let’s see what truly annoys me on this walk today.

Anyone that even vaguely knows me knows that I am very easily annoyed, and increasingly intolerant of my fellow human. The heat magnifies this to a degree where I will be forced, for my own safety, indoors. Only a few weekends ago I narrowly escaped being punched by a well-built youth half my age when I demonstrated annoyance at the music from his parked car when I was trying to read. You may think this brave of me, but you didn’t see me almost cringingly back down when he got out of his car.

Straight away my first pet hate speeds past me as I resume walking towards town - cyclists on the pavement. These people should be punished by the state, or pedestrians should be allowed to remove them from their bikes in some manner that doesn’t put others at risk (maybe throw them into a handy hedge or down an embankment).

This is a growing phenomenon which needs to be nipped in the bud. Too often I’ve maybe taken a wee step sideways on the pavement, maybe to avoid a dog or a child, only to risk being shunted up the arse by a speeding cyclist from behind. Apart from the toll on one’s blood pressure it could potentially be most embarrassing attending A&E with a set of bike handles inserted in ones anal cavity.

Walking through The Meadows, a pleasantly umbrageous area of Edinburgh, I spy a couple under the shade of a burly oak kissing and canoodling. This sort of behaviour annoys me immensely, largely I suspect because I am not one of the participants (well, the male one at any rate), but also because I am of the opinion that such activities should be conducted in private (Is this not a Protestant country? What would John Knox think?). There’s something quite arrogant about displaying ones ardour and passion in such a public place. I believe a three-strike approach to this is appropriate. Third offence results in chemical castration for the male and a year spent with no make- up and messy hair for the female. I’ll leave gay relationships alone as they’ve been persecuted to the extent that they deserve to rub our faces in it.

I notice that the Edinburgh Buddhist HQ is located in leafy, middle-class, arty-farty Marchmont and not in the far less salubrious Pilton. This is further evidence to me that Buddhism and the middle-classes have utterly embraced each other. Spiritual enlightenment and Nirvana now seem, in the west at any rate, the domain of those positioned to afford it. This is much the same with other such ‘alternative’ therapies and the like. The Meadowlark ‘space for wellness’ is also located there. I, being a mere weegie pleb, would be far too intimidated to even enter its portals. They’d think I was there to fix the photocopier or to empty the bins. Believe me, I know of which I speak, having naively tried to ‘join in’ with such things in the past.


I’m more at home on buses, though I hate them also, sometimes to the point of screaming out loud.